Why do I still bother writing? I could have stopped doing it after I completed the first volume of this book, since there was already enough content there, in my view, to leave a mark and basically tell the world, “This is who I am”.
I still do it because it’s still fun for me. That’s pretty much the only reason. If the day comes when I feel like writing my thoughts and memories is annoying, I will stop writing. But as things are right now, writing is extremely fun for me and that’s why I do it. If you liked writing, and had stuff to write about, you’d probably also do it. After all, having fun is… fun.
But after a certain point, isn’t it a waste of time to keep writing when you could be expending your energy on learning a new skill, like for example music production, or starting a business or making money or doing sports? This all depends on your priorities and, of course, your desires (since without desire you won’t consistently pursue an activity). Besides, the learning curve to learning a new skill like music production is steep and it would take me thousands of hours to reach a level of skill I’d be proud of. After all, an artist like Száhala has been producing music ever since he was 12 years old (and that’s coincidentally pretty much the same age at which I started writing in English on the internet). Since I have spent practically zero hours learning music production, doing it would probably not be very fun to me. It’d take me at least a hundred hours of study to get to a level where I’d be able to actually compose and produce anything to my taste. I might do that one day, but right now this is not my priority. So the fact that I am comfortable with my writing skills also contributes to me still writing, no doubt. If I sucked at writing, I wouldn’t be writing. As for making more money, I am indeed working on that in addition to writing. I invest in opportunities whenever I can and indeed I am already making over 4k USD per month off of one of these investments, which is more than enough to live a comfortable life in my country. Of course, I want to make more money and eventually buy a house, but these things take time, and while I wait I can have fun. As for sports, I am doing a bit of bodyweight strength training every day. I am already able to do 30 consecutive pullups, for example. I could go back to boxing, since that’s pretty much the only sport I am relatively skillful at (as opposed to, say, surfing, which I suck at and moreover is a logistical nightmare for me because I don’t have a car). I simply don’t do it because I no longer feel a strong desire to do it. I am content with just doing a basic, quick bodyweight routine. Indeed, I feel the only thing missing in my life is a girlfriend, and lately I have been thinking more seriously about this and have started taking a little bit of action towards getting one (just thinking about it more obsessively is a small step that is bound to turn into massive action: I know myself and that’s how I am).
So it’s not like writing is taking over my life. I am currently able to balance all my desires in a healthy way. I will therefore continue to write as long as it is fun for me and I have anything to write about. So enjoy reading me.
The Stillest 